Epileptic Mom

The struggle is real when it comes to moving and having seizures. I don't normally complain but I'm going to do it tonight I really didn't have anything come up today besides, cleaning before my dad got home and getting my mattress switched out I had the worst night of sleep last night. So guess what that means I'm tired have a busy day ahead and one tomorrow as well but I wasn't as bad as you think I would have been. I only had 2 today which is a good thing I guess today just wasn't eventful and didn't give me any inspiration like most days my poor baby girl my boxer Laila split open her paw today when Morgan and I took our dogs for a run. I handed in my applications today but that's all that really happened tonight is my sons first night here and my dad is home for the weekend so I guess we'll see what happens.  This is what I looked like today that's a matcha smoothie so good Amanda Rost https://www.facebook.com/EpilepticMom/ I...

So moving back to my home town means.......job hunting and not just me myself my best friend broke up with her boyfriend which I talked about it in my post Heartbreak (Go ahead and read it for some insight) but I dress up and look nice just to pick up an application for a job. So I thought I would give a little advice on how to present yourself when job hunting. Just remember this is my opinion and just a little advice it's not personal. I made my friend change shirts before she went into an interview I literally said to her and I quote "You are not wearing that" This is what I wore to work on time and I just had a good pair of jeans on  She just got off work at her family sandwich shop so she had a shirt that wasn't in the best of shape the appliqued letters were coming off (Morgan if you're reading this I love you and I'm sorry) So I went to my closet and picked out a nice shirt and handed it to her. Now there are 2 different ways to go to and 2 di...

This week has just started out to a rough start......I don't know where to start but what I think what I'm going to is touch the subject of real vs fake friends. What I'm going through right now feels complicated and I just want support but I don't know how to touch the subject with my friend. I'm not going to name names because a lot of my friends do read my blog. It's not just one friend though I have a couple that has been doing this to me, I know I'm having trouble with my marriage I'm not going to lie but I would never tell one of my friends and I quote. "I know you are headed towards divorce" I would never say this to them I don't know how to bring it up to them. Just because my marriage is on the rocks doesn't mean it's going to head that way. I love my friends but I don't know how I would bring this up to them. I love them and don't want to ruin our relationship. I know that my relationship with my husband is...

A Succesful Marriage Requires Falling in Love Many Times, Always with the Same Person -Mignon McLaughin Today isn't over yet and I just feel like being done. Moving into my dad's house and all the cleaning I have to do is exhausting. (My dad is a smoker) I want to try and get the house to smell better he's smoked in the house since I was little. When my parents split  my mom got the house until they figured something out and she washed the walls and the house no longer smelled like smoke. She ended up letting him have the house due to reasons and there for awhile he got to be a heavy smoker. So where are moving in I'd like to have it that way again but I know it's not going to be completely smoke free because he'll be home on the weekends. (My dad works in construction) So during the week it'll be just me and my boy untill my hubby and his friend fix the propane. (Who knows when that'll happen) So I'll be here at my dad's house I guess ...

So Thursday I headed down to my home town (where I also am moving back to) The reason I headed down was that I had a cardiologist appointment on Friday, that I didn't need to have. The people at Sidney Health Center don't like to listen to their patents (yes I saw this doctor once before) I was cleared to be healthy my first time. That grand mal seizure I had in June was the only reason that they wanted me to go see her again and in my nature, I argued on not to see her. Well, I lost that argument and saw her yesterday so let me give you a rundown of how this went. Drive two hours the day before so I can go with my mom (my child is in the back seat) stay the night at my mom's house. Next day (Friday) we drive three hours to go to my doctor's appointment now this is my doctor's appointment.......I go into the room talk to the nurse list off my medications get my blood pressure and pulse checked like every nurse does before the doctor comes in. My doctor comes in th...

I know everyone needs to rant every now and then I regret yesterday so much it's ridiculous. I thought of taking the post down but, if I do that I might forget that I did it and do it again. So it's going to stay up if you don't know what I'm talking about my Mother Inlaw post. I'm going to leave it up so I know my mistakes and so I know not to do it again. Saying that and you peoples know I don't like to talk politics but that's why I think we should leave our civil war statues alone. Yes, slavery is over but if we hide our past and future generations don't know about it there is a possibility of history repeating. Before people start calling me a white privileged women quick reminder before the Atlantic Slave Trade  there was the Barbary Slave Trade . Now if some of my facts are off I apologize but my point is our ancestors did bad things or suffered bad things. I'm not trying to make this topic seem happy I just want people to remember and al...

Rant and Trigger Warning  Everyone who is married has one a mother in-law some people get along great others are constantly at each other's  throats. I on the other hand get a long with mine......(but today) So yesterday I made a post that kind of went everywhere on me about moving, being stressed, excited over a job opportunity. So let me give you a little background on my mil she's a stay at home mom with 5 kids that's counting my husband's cousin she raised (my husband is the oldest and from her first marriage) no looking from the outside in you would think she has well behaved kids (which she does) who are very responsible (and they are) she has a clean house and a very beautiful house that took a year of renovation I don't b*tch about her often but when I do it's always the same thing it's about the state of my house MY house. Reminder I have a toddler who gets into EVERYTHING    for ex: cupboards, drawers, and anything else her can reach we tried c...

I'm sorry I've been away again I've just been so busy packing.......I know I have to do what I have to do for my child......I'm a mom I gotta do what's right for my kid. So we are moving in with my husband's friend.....I'm not amused. The only exciting part is there is an advertisement job opening I would love to get this job. Designing Ads would be a dream to me I love talking to you guys and knowing that I have a support system that most people don't get the chance to have you lovelies are amazing there might not be many of you. I have one photo that I would like to show you since I have my laptop working again I wanna share some of my work. This is a picture one of my friends took of me I ended up just adding a filter and an older camera glare stamp. I love this picture of me I do need to take some new photos of myself not just because this was a senior picture but also because I chopped off my hair. I guess this post was kinda pointless but I gue...

Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option.” ― Mark Twain I quoted Mark Twain last night to my best friend who just broke up with her boyfriend. A little back story (I blame myself for one) I set them up together she got out of a bad relationship and I set her up with this guy who was a family friend who I thought was a really nice guy, but he's one of those guys that shows their bad side once deep into the relationship. They left on good terms (I still would like to put him in the ground) which shows the level of maturity the reason I'm so upset is because he asked her to move in with him and then turns around and breaks her heart where she has to move back home where she has no job no house (Yeah mom and dad but still) he makes her feel that there is something wrong with her there isn't she's an amazing person. He's messed with her mind which upsets me big time I want to put him 6 foot under but she won't let me. ...

I wanted today's post to be about a historical person who had Epilepsy. As I searched there were so many people some names stood out others I had to read on. From science to acting the backgrounds varying sports, musicians, politics, writers, and more. Which made me realize picking one wouldn't be enough picking more than one wouldn't be enough either. No matter who I would have quoted another great man or woman would have been forgotten. Reading that some of these people tried to hide it with alcohol. It's tragic that at one point in time people felt the need to hide it instead of embracing it. (Saying that makes me sound like a hypocrite) I will admit it I tried hiding it from people, when I first started working I didn't want anyone to know when I started dating the second the guy found out he ran. I hide it as hard as I could my best friend didn't know for a while because I was afraid she'd treat me differently than others (which she does now but not i...

Re-homing your dog is not an easy thing to do it's conflicting I'm here sitting thinking if I should do it or not. I'm the person who seeks out advice or someone to tell me what to do. I have that problem I grew up never getting the chance to make my choices for me. So as an adult I ask what should I do to as many people I can the one person I can always count on is my brother I ask him and he gives me the best way to help me make my own decision. Where I feel conflicted I asked him and he said "That's why you break it down and deal with one issue at a time. Don't let the others distract. Track your conflict backwards until you can come up with one answer. Then move on to the next and the next until you come across a decision" Now it may be that he took physiology classes in college and whatnot, but it's still good advice. I was also told to write it down. What's my decision going to be I don't know yet but hopefully, I can figure it ...

Who are you can you answer that question. I know it's a hard one for me I think I know but I am unsure “Knowing yourself is the beginning of all wisdom.” ― Aristotle Reading this quote makes me realize I don't real know who I am I know that I am a mother, a wife, a woman who love the country, someone who loves Asian cultures I also love Anime. That's what I know I don't even feel that describes who I am or what I am. Finding who you are is a journey it's self I don't get. Do I know exactly what Aristotle meant no I don't but  I do, however know that Confucius said,  "To know what you know and to know what you do not know is the mark of one who knows."  They say pretty much the same thing in my opinion but here's my question can you turly know yourself. As Confucius said "you know what you do" those things I know about myself are what I do not who I am. I'm going to be honest with myself and you peoples I will never...

You never know what life is going to throw in your direction it surprises me daily. I'm not getting my hopes up but this time moving back if it happens I'm excited for my husband but I'm not going to get excited so my hopes and dreams don't come crashing down. “Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened.” ― Dr. Seuss I'm going to listen to Dr. Seuss if this doesn't work out like we hope though. Whatever life throws at us we can take it, which means doing things we don't want to as well. (I say us but I mean me) I'm stubborn and want stuff a certain way but I have to learn that I can't always do that. (Here's an elephant since I mentioned water in the title) So here's some advice when it comes to doing stuff you don't exactly want to do. Don't by time to see if things change it may sound like a good idea but can be harmful to your living arrangement and family Talk about it weigh your pros and cons ...

I might be leaving my wonderful job and being a stay at home mom again. I don't know if I want to go back to my home town and live with my husband's friend. I know being an adult sucks but I know I have to do what I have to do. On the bright side, I can get chickens.   Okay I'm not going to lie to you guys I'm not a fan of the idea but when you can't pay your bills and your credit is turning to crap. You got to do things you don't want to I don't want to be a freeloader by moving in with his friend. I know I could probably sell some eggs once I get my chickens started but also I'm going to have to figure out some guideline rules when it comes to them. I say them because I don't feel like having 2 husbands I've lived with this friend before and I know what he's like. I'm not blaming him but I'm not agreeing to this idea. I got to do what keeps food on the table for my child and if that means I have to make a meal that feeds 6 peop...

This weekend is fair my first fair is my new town I'm so excited to take Gabriel to it this weekend we went out last night as a family for supper it was pretty much a culture shock to me. I'm going to a concert as well I'm praying that I'm not taking to much of a risk by going to it. I should of added going to a concert to yesterday's post but oh well that's all over with my husband has been such a sweetheart lately. So lets go a head and have me get off subject in 3.2.1. My husband and our marriage is getting better us as a couple is getting better in my opinion. We've talked about moving to Casper WY since it's closer to my doctor and living is cheaper and also it'd be almost a fresh start we wouldn't have the challenges that we are dealing with right now just when you think life is going great something or in this case someone has to come a ruin things for us. Now I'm not implying that my husband cheated he's been being harassed by ...

Seizures 101 my way   They suck While in a seizure focus on fighting it Make sure you take your pills It sucks Lay down do you don't get hurt Take emergency meds if possible   This little list might piss some people off but I'm in the mood right now that I don't care. My seizures have just driven me to the point today that I'm pissed at them.  So consider this a venting post if you must but I'm pissed that I forget about my meds and then being told by a number of people you're an adult you should be able to remember this stuff by yourself or you do it every day why can't you remember or you know how important they are why can't you just take them and then you have my personal favorite DID YOU TAKE YOUR PILLS. Those few words if you ask me I will scream at you and yes I know I take my pills every day I'm the one taking them and yes I know they are important but you know what that's not the first thing I'm thinking of...

Husbands.....or Men... So in a relationship, you fight like most healthy relationships or they're considered healthy. I fight with my husband at least once a month we have a big fight a blow out is what I call it. Sometimes I end up throwing things at him but once the air is cleared we find ourselves making up. I like to look up random facts when I'm bored which ended up leading me to this post here I'm making. So here it is  40% of women have hurled footwear at a man This honestly made me laugh and think about some of the stuff I've thrown at my husband which I've never thrown a shoe at him. I don't know the studies behind it cause I just Google random facts and click on random websites I don't remember which one this came from but I thought some of you might like it. In all seriousness fighting is never fun with or without Epilepsy I know it throws me into a fit of seizures every now and again it just depends how serious the fight gets. I love m...

I've been thinking to much One thing I love about trying to bring more awareness to epilepsy is meeting others that are doing the same or others that are just dealing with it then there are the ones who need help coping with it the matter of the fact knowing that there are more people like me and being able to talk to them is the greatest thing in the world. I wanna help people cope I wanna make a difference even if it just to have a few words with someone. You don't have to tell me your life's story you can just talk to me if you want I live meeting new people. Since I wasn't able to become a nurse you can contact me on blogger Instagram or Facebook just look for Epileptic Mom or Epileptic Mom Momments. I'm here to help people I'm here because I'm either going through it or I've been there and I might not have any experience with it all bit I'll try to help you out. I encourage people to talk to me. No I realize that I just completely rambled o...