I don't have time to go see a counselor in person I can't take that many days off of work in a month. I'm not about to ask my boyfriend either because I know he would help. I don't per se want his help I just don't want him paying for it, even though I know I'm not when he pays for my stuff I feel like a golddigger. That's not me it's an argument every time we go out for supper on him paying for my stuff. I get he's my boyfriend but he shouldn't be obligated to do so. I get he makes that money but still he doesn't need to pay all the time. I love him and plan on him sticking around for a long time if he likes it or not.
We've been together for a month today I claim it was yesterday but we agree to disagree I know a month isn't very long but it's felt like a year. I know so much already and I love him so much I'm scared of how good he treats me and that he's going to get tired of my baggage that I still try to hide. Being honest with each other makes everything so easy.
So far I have learned to accept some of his help not all but some. He helps me with some of my bills we've even talked about getting a joint for bills and bills only. I've accepted the idea of him being my future I'm slowly getting back to that point and he's helping me. I know I'll get better mentally someday now let us just pray for whatever may come of my epilepsy.