No Dog?

Re-homing your dog is not an easy thing to do it's conflicting I'm here sitting thinking if I should do it or not. I'm the person who seeks out advice or someone to tell me what to do. I have that problem I grew up never getting the chance to make my choices for me. So as an adult I ask what should I do to as many people I can the one person I can always count on is my brother I ask him and he gives me the best way to help me make my own decision. Where I feel conflicted I asked him and he said

"That's why you break it down and deal with one issue at a time. Don't let the others distract. Track your conflict backwards until you can come up with one answer. Then move on to the next and the next until you come across a decision"

Now it may be that he took physiology classes in college and whatnot, but it's still good advice. I was also told to write it down. What's my decision going to be I don't know yet but hopefully, I can figure it out. Here are some of the reasons re-homing my baby is a good idea

1. We can't provide what she needs right now
2. She'll be with her new person more
3. She will be disciplined properly (my husband has a hard time with that)
4. The household is busier than ours
5. She'll be loved just as much
6. It'll be good for both her and my husband's grandmother
7. Less tension in the house

I know it's like I'm never going to see her again I always find myself trying to find reasons why we can't give her up. I sit her thinking is she a need or a want I know that sounds bad because she's a living creature but do I need a dog or want one. I know life will go on but I feel my heart in my chest just falling into my stomach. I keep asking is my son old enough to understand? Is she going to be able to handle the stress of moving? I know she'll be okay but I have a friend that rehomed her dog once upon a time. He ran off on the people she gave him to. Is Laila going to do that to my husband's grandmother? I'm thinking of my conflicting matters and I feel like I do it more and more. I feel selfish almost as if keeping her isn't a good thing. I know it's not a selfish thing as well because I have a bond with her my feelings are there with her.

The list of reasons not to is different from the other list

1. I love her
2. Is she going to continue eating
3. Is she going to be happy
4. Will her immune disorder comeback
5. Am I being forced into this

They all come out questions, not facts like the first one there lies the difference in its self I don't know if I'm looking for excuses to keep her or if they are excuses to give her up. If we retrain her can we keep her? There is so much going on in my heart and my head I hope nobody else has to go through this like I do.

I'm going to be handing over my first child and pretty much say her take care of her it's almost like I'm being guilt-tripped
into it as well.

Amanda Rost

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